today two therapists are not here for group in the am. makes for a boring day until dinner. i did nothing. not a single thing. its nearly depressing, however, i got cleared from the finance department. how’s that for progress?
i also didnt stand up to dr. lado. i am a wimp. i may not feel ready to go but he’ll never know why.

sitting around at metabolics just sitting and chillin laughing. i will miss this place. i wonder if my hestitations was based on my fear of leaving or the fear of myself and potential relapse. uncanny how scary it is.